It’s not bipolar disorder from which we need healing – it is the human condition, the state of alienation in which all humans spend so much of our time, the illusion of the separate self. Thought about this way, we don’t heal from bipolar disorder, we heal through it – it is one particular human path towards healing.
Other paths include business, service, study/teaching/ wisdom, sports (think Diana Nyad’s personal journey and triumphs through long-distance swimming), spirituality and religion – and healing from a myriad of other human maladies like alcohol addiction. The 12 Step programs are an especially strong vehicle for personal healing – and you will read in this blog posts about my own healing through Overeaters Anonymous. It is common for people in 12 Step programs to say that they are grateful that they got their disease – that the process of personal healing they have gone through because of it has made their lives richer and deeper than they otherwise might ever have been.
I have always been grateful (except when I haven’t) for the way that hitting bottom with my bipolar disorder humbled me, brought me to my knees, got me beyond my “I can do it myself” arrogance – taught me how to ask for and receive help. My path since then has been one of continual opening, continual healing – with also a lot of periods where it felt like I was going nowhere.
Bipolar disorder is constantly attempting to disintegrate us, to split us into two beings that have little communication with each other – much less working together as an integrated whole. This blog attempts to help us find the way to being one, whole, authentic, healthy human being – who may still wrestle with the ravages of bipolar disorder, but is not defined by them. Yes, we seek a state of balance, but not one that is a happy medium between mania and depression. Each of these states has its own unique gifts; we need to find a way to live that brings forward the gifts of each state without the imbalance and toxicity that usually accompanies them.